Oh just a little bit sappy ❤
…and brief because sappy is just not my thing… On a scale from 1 to Even, I just can’t! #canteven
It’s important to note though – I’m a
bit of a spiritual nomad. I haven’t found the root cause for my lack of roots, or more precisely, my aversion to roots…
However, I have found a tribe, so my struggle to use my wings and yet stay grounded is so very real. #thestruggleisreal
I taught myself to live in the very real, very present moment – at least what I consider real – which may be frosted with naivete and immaturity – but I really don’t care.
So each moment is a special little bubble – I rarely look ahead except in fantasy, not in reality, and certainly not when it comes to other people.
Typically my fantasies include me fighting bad guys or visiting faraway places –
My bucket list fantasy with a man, specifically Captain Amazing, is simply a sleep-all-day-sex-all-day sexcapade, which seems simple enough. It hasn’t happened in my lifetime yet, and I was married once.
…well it may have happened when I was married, but I didn’t appreciate life then, as I do now, so I don’t remember it.
I know now, since my true awakening, that each moment I encounter is absolutely precious – a sweetcapade of the highest order.
I spent another Sunday playing all day – I AM SO GRATEFUL! All kids, all fun, hanging upside down, climbing, headstands, cartwheels, chasing garbage trucks (that didn’t exist), running, spinning, laughing, dog-piling.
GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL, GRATEFUL.
My agenda or my goal or my hope or my dream, whatever you want to call it – Is to have my heart touched in such a way that I never forget how amazing this journey has been, how miraculous each moment truly is – I will always remember how I felt with them in my life.
And now I can add that I hope and dream that I will leave (or have already left) a lasting impression on these hearts too – so no matter what happens tomorrow, a year from now, or 10 years from now – they will always remember how they felt with me in their lives, in these moments.
These moments are brief – they are each a bubble filled with magic and happiness – And each one is so special to me. And their smiles and curious gazes just fill my entire being with warmth and joy.
They may not remember my name years down the road – I don’t know how long we will get to play together –
But I will treat each day that I get to spend with them as the very special gift it is, knowing that the game might have to be called because of darkness, rain, lightning, thunder, or comfort.
I’m terrified and yet NOT because I’ve already won.
I WIN!!! ❤