A-Z Blog Challenge
…title by Captain Amazing…
There are many ways to define ecstasy. It is a state of extreme delight, which seems rather tame and not as descriptive as when I’m floating in ecstasy.
How does he define it?
I actually haven’t asked. I guess I should… It would be important to know that.
However, I have observed moments of sexual ecstasy, without doubt – which make me ecstatic! The power I possess to make that happen – to render this man absolutely helpless and incapacitated for that moment…It’s an event I just cannot get enough of!
He has observed moments of sexual ecstasy in me…Some of those moments have lasted hours. One night, he spent over 3 hours examining and studying how my body reacted when he did certain things – like a mad scientist.
He knows every inch, centimeter, millimeter of my entire body – every bit of it – It’s terrifying and awesome! There is no hiding!
I cannot pretend to be anything else – I cannot make any excuses – All I have is my rawness, my realness, my authentic manner of showing up physically and emotionally because I have no walls left – I have nothing to hide behind.
It’s terrifying and awesome!
It’s like I’ve peeled back all the hard layers of being a so-called “adult,” to reveal mySELF.
The results are nothing less than exquisite.
And I’m ecstatic about it!
I would say that ecstasy is not just extreme happiness, but an exchange of it…giving and receiving.
I also find myself in a very unique position, not just being so revealed fully, but stepping into that revelation – into a place I’ve never been before.
In 6 weeks, I close the door on the massage room. It’s terrifying and awesome!
My arms hurt, my wrist hurts…I’m so tired.
I don’t want to launch my new career not being able to function, so I am creating an Ecstatic Energy Exchange, where I exit the old life and enter the new one –
I’ve slowly been doing this over the last year and a half, but now I’m down the wire, and I just feel like I need a ritualistic challenge to reboot. And I need to focus on the physical elements that have been not attended to with the grace and charm they are normally given.
In order to feel more ecstatic ecstasy in all elements of my existence, my cells need some deep cleaning and some deep loving~ I need ENERGY.
I have already eliminated (again) all artificial sweeteners, and actually that includes Stevia. If it comes from a manufacturing plant (other than to be ground), it’s not going in my mouth.
I just got an awesome toy for grinding, not in a sexual way.
My “diet” for the next 6 weeks will largely consist of juice, raw and real. I will be spending the next 3 weeks living in hell – with no breaks, no life, no free time, very little sleep, and no ecstasy at all. So I’ll sneak in meditation where I can and live on juice and air!